Anxiety.
What is the meaning of the word anyway?
The way people use that word as a reference, its not what i thought it was.
Well,until now.
I dont know man,but it kills me.I never thought any one could torture me this way except for myself.
me.
A voice inside my head.
"Kau tak rasa ke benda kau cakap tadi tunjuk sangat kau ni bejet perfect?"
"Diorang semua benci kau"
"Dorang semua tak pandang kau anymore than a wannabe"
And it kills me more,to not know who is this voice belongs to?
Angel?
Devil?
Or is it just my consciousness speaking because my eyes failed
to see the truth, of me?
Im a people pleaser,and because of that everyday i strive to become better.
And the thing is,everyday i keep that in my mind before i sleep,and somehow when i wake up i am only able to prove the opposite.
And it aches,when everyday i cant stop myself from doing that,
the more sins i have,
the uglier attitude i bring with to the people that matters to me,
the more i let myself down.
I really dont know wether im being hypocrite.or its just the reality,that i am
a person with an ugly heart.
